Since it's been forever...

I cant pretty much say I'm not pregnant... although I'm not allowed to start my new pills until our new doctor gets back my blood results. I'm OK with it. I mean, we just started trying and with the PCOS I didn't expect to get pregnant quickly anyways.
Our original doctor, Dr. Hayes of Contemporary Women's Care, dumped us. I still feel really screwed over by the whole ordeal with her and the way she did it, but we're both really happy with Dr. Goodman at the Reproductive Medicine Center, so I'm trying to put that whole nightmare behind me... for those of you not on the Nest or who haven't heard I'll give you the details if you want to know, but there's no point in putting them here.
So, were taking a new direction with Dr. Goodman. I am starting an every day routine of yoga and pilates (I was just doing yoga 1-2 a week, but I'm stepping up and adding to it), taking Metformin, starting Weight Watchers, taking Prometrium, and next month we will probably add Clomid back into the mix depending on my test results and Keith's sperm analysis. I know it seems like a lot of fuss for a couple that just started ttc, but I don't want to waste time hoping that my PCO will go away and I'll ovulate normally. We want more than 1 child and I don't want to have babies after 35 so we need to get cracking on this!
I'm excited 'cause the new issue of Conceive magazine has Marti and Emily's stories. They are the sisters in the Dixie Chicks and both of them had infertility issues but now both have beautiful children!!! I'm excited!
Life otherwise has been pretty good. I've had some fall outs with friends and gotten a lot closer with others. We have fostered and adopted a new kitten, Phlox, but lost one of my sweet boys, Zeta. So life is, as usual, bittersweet.
Anyhoots, thanks for reading and I promise to update more in the future!
xo

Excellent video for those who are TTC....

I bawled my eyes out when I saw this and even though we're new to the TTC (Trying To Conceive) group it still really touched me and I wanted to post it here and several other places. For more info on this wonderful country singer go to www.kelliecoffey.com

Update!

So I stepped back from blogging for a couple days to feel out the whole Clomid experience. I will say that the emotional episodes aren't fun (I even teared up at commercials!) nor the hot flashes... or the headaches, but I now know why it says that "your doctor has prescribed this for the greater good". I don't know ow much I would usually ovulate, but it looks like I'm going to this month! The Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) has shown High Fertility levels for the past 5 days and I'm really optimistic about that! Before when I'd use the strips I would get nothing, so this is an improvement. I'm really nervous though and just hoping I don't catch myself in the usual trap of extreme hopefulness and then crushing defeat. I know logically that baby making, even for normal couples, can take a while... but it's a different process with the heart. I'm an emotional person and although I'm not ashamed of it I wish there were times when I could tune it down some, especially now. But again, I know it's for the greater good.
I'm learning the dialect of the Nest boards which is helpful! I never knew about their abbreviated language and at first ('cause I didn't understand it) I thought it was strange and a little silly, but now I'm willing to embrace some of it. I probably will never use it here, but who knows! At any rate, keep your fingers crossed for me that in a few days I'll ovulate and know that this month of strangeness and Clomid has been worth it. Thank you all for your support and for reading!
Be well!

I don't know if this is normal...

As you all know I started the Clomid last night and this morning (and all day today) I've had no period flow. Normally I would be psyched about this, but I think I'm supposed to still be OTR so I'm a little freaked. I'm super sore and sensitive and really tired... it's kind of like the Clomid hit my reset button and I'm back on PMS mode. Yuck! Anyways, I think I'll post this over at TheNestBaby.com and see if the Nesties have any advice... if any of you do PLEASE let me know : )
Thanks!

A quick note....

So I started the Clomid tonight. 100 mg. I took it with dinner and felt a little strange afterwards, could be an early hormone rush, my period, or me just jumping the gun and giving myself psychological syptoms that manifest physically. Not sure. I hate how the side effects section of Clomid says "Remember that your doctor has prescribed this medication because the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects"... that's real encouraging. Anyways, crossing my fingers that this will help bring us closer to being parents!

Hello!

I've always been pretty direct about the things I've wanted in life, so it's been a struggle for me that something that should come naturally hasn't and might not. I have PCOS ( PolyCystic Ovary Syndrome) and do not ovulate like regular women. Although my husband and I haven't waited the normal 1 year amount of time that most couples do before seeking medical intervention, I have a pretty strong feeling that I would still need the help. My doctor have decided to put me on Clomid for the next 3 months and I am exactly 1 day away from starting my first dose! I'm excited but, as usual, a little nervous. I think most of this stems from the fact that the average patient on Clomid is given 6 months to try, but my doctor is only giving us 3 months. I'm a naturally nervous person so having a shorter deadline makes me very nervous.
Anyways, the whole point of me starting this blog was so I could share my experiences on the drug with anyone whose interested. My doctor told me she believes I will do fine on it with maybe a little change in my moods. To me this is funny because as I looked up information countless women were reporting major mood changes and I am super emotional already so I can only hope this won't send me off the deep end.
This hasn't been the easiest journey for me. I thought for sure that when I announced to my friends and family that at 29 years old I have decided, along with my husband, that we are ready to have a baby there would be tons of love and support. Not quite. My immediate family is extrememly supportive and excited and my best friends are too, but there are some that have continually been unsupportive and negative about our choice. I realize that being a fat woman I will have problems, and I fight every day with my own insecurities and issues. Those who are close to me know that I am strong in my involvement in the Fat Positive movement and they're all very supportive of that, but some how when I mention pregnancy my health and energy levels are called into question. Just so everyone reading this knows, my health is perfect. At 250 some pounds I have lower cholestrol than most people, perfect blood pressure, perfect blood sugar, my heart is in perfect condition, and aside from some minor issues that have nothing to do with weight (eczema and anxiety disorder) my only major problem is the PCOS. So if I were 100 pounds lighter I'm sure that these friends would be 100% behind me, but I have my husband's support, my mother and grandmother's support, my doctor's support, and the support of my best friend's, so screw them.
Other friends like to bring up how much our lifestyle will change or our finances. Well, we're homebodies who enjoy DVRing our favorite shows and getting movies from our Blockbuster que. We have 3 beagles and a kitten and on Monday nights we host a radio show on community radio (WMNF 88.5)... so what exactly would we be giving up? The radio show is the only thing we might not be able to bring a baby to after a while, but we have more than willing babysitters-to-be so I don't see a problem there. Finances are tight, but as our officiant and marriage councelor told us, you add another cup of water to the pot. You find a way to make things work. Families all over the world seem to manage every day.
Besides, if I stopped to weigh out every single detail in our lives and how it might or will change I'd never get anything done. I'm no stranger to children, and we are both fully aware of how our lives may change.
So that's our current situation and a peak into our lives. I'll write more about us on occasion, but mainly this will be for me to report on Clomid and TTC (trying to conceive).
Thanks for reading!